I need a friend

I always bring mirror everywhere I go. No, not literally. This mirror I use so that find out which one is right and which one is wrong. So, I know how to treat people like the way I treat my self.

I used to be sick of people who always telling me what to do, telling me the right thing to do with my life. But then I realized maybe I need to be open to other's opinions. Oh yeah, I got it right but then I'm back to sick of it again.

Mostly I see parent's roles around me, I don't know, they're full of superego and I keep the words in mind. No matter what. I learn and trying to put everything on its path. I really try. After all, I do recognize the bad things and I try to always avoid them.

But, apparently the superego won't last that long. I hate to see this phase again, the phase where I lost my trust to certain roles. I just don't get it, where those superegos when they act like the ones the superego has told me wrong? Where the heck those stuffs has gone??

I'm sick. I'm sick. I'm fed up with people keeping their image or whatever. Oh I'm bloody fed up with an ignorant. You throw me away, you know that?! Then, don't be upset if you find nobody next to you after that. It's all your fault and I'm not the one who walked away. It's you.

Getting older, I think, I'm gonna get better experiences. You know, being wiser and face everything as a grown-up. But then, the more I grow up, the more I see people acting like a fuckin little kids. I'm wondering, where're the adults gone? Are they still exist or I'm the only one now? Nevermind.

Kids don't talk their problems, kids don't tell your fault, kids have silent habit when they get mad. I don't wanna meet anymore kids, I wanna have real grown-up friends. A friend who simply stand by me, talk to me and just save my ass. You get the point.

Pardon me for this rude post, I just wanna spill my thoughts before I'm going insane. This human stuffs is a complicated deal. Really. The more I get here, the more I find less people to trust to. I simply need a friend. Just a little tiny friend. You know what friend is. Is that too much to ask?

Don't make me lose my trust to you. My trust is a whole things you have in me, mate.

This shit reminds me of a Paramore's song, Ignorance. That song describes my condition in a better way. It's like I'm the one who wrote that song, but I really don't wanna have someone to give that song. Really. If I could write a song, then I'd write You've got a friend. It way better to write and to give :]

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

We're the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it

The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

Yeah, we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out